Monday, September 18, 2006

Pippa's Big Fat Dilemma...

I am so conflicted about this whole healthy eating thing. I know that I have to do it for my health, I have to try and cut down my risk of stroke, heart attack etc. But I am a compulsive eater. I have been trying for years to get to a place of comfort and safety where food is concerned. I have been learning to love my body as it is, which meant accepting my fat and my weight. Now everything I have learned has been thrown right back at me. It is NOT okay to be me. Being me is dangerous.

I loathe the idea of Weight Watchers, Slimming World, Slim Fast etc. I absolutely can not agree with the philosophy behind any of them. But where do I go for help now? Where do I turn for advice on losing weight without it becoming an exercise in body fascism? How do I reconcile my need to be smaller and healthier with my fat woman politics?

I am struggling today; all I want to do is find refuge in the foods that I love. Suddenly, frighteningly, it isn't a safe option.

3 comments:

Natalie Bennett said...

My approach: exercise incorporated into your daily routine, for me a bicycle as the main form of transport.

Focusing on eating fruit and veg. Can't say they exactly thrill me, but they do fill me up and fill up space on the plate - I get an organic box once a week, so it is in the fridge and I feel guilty if I don't eat most of it.h

spotted elephant said...

What Natalie said. Plus, I don't know if this will work, but I've tried to focus on taking care of myself, and learning to make really healthy meals that taste good too. I'm in the early stages, so...

Maybe if you get to a point where your diabetes is stablized, you can eat a broader range of food than you might be able to at first.

I'm sorry you have to go through this.

Yawning Lion said...

Hang in there, Pippa!

YL